Today was not my most shining moment. I struggled. Anxiety is lame, and annoying, and painful. I had a major anxiety attack today. It was bad. Jacob and I both were in tears. It took me an hour to calm down. I haven't had an axiety attack like this for a very long time.
Through all the turmoil, tears, anger, and fear I was reminded of how much my Heavenly Father loves me. My sweet husband held me tight as I fell apart in his arms while he told me how much he loved me and how much Heavenly Father loves me. "You are a child of God", he told me. That is when I started to feel myself break through the anxiety mask that I was wearing. After each irrational sentance I said Jake repeated to me, "this is your anxiety". He was patient, thoughtful, and real. He made me face my fears in a way that was kind and manageable. What a blessing.
Today was a testament to me that there is a God in Heaven that is directing my life. How else would I have found the one person in the entire world that knows how to cope with me and my anxiety with such grace? Jake is so in tune with me and my emotions. I was in awe today. How blessed I am to have him in my life to keep me from leaping off the edge. He is amazing - he is my best friend. I love him with all my heart.
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